Uncomfortable

31 weeks pregnant today and I haven't been able to sleep the past 2 days because this baby has decided to have a constant dance party in my belly. Can't blame her, I am her mother. Although, I took a 3 hour nap today and that was the first time I've slept for 3 hours straight without waking up since I can't even remember when! It was so refreshing. I woke up in the best mood ever.

My baby shower was last week and all my best friends came down from Utah which was just what I needed. It was so much fun to have them here to remind myself that I'm still just like them but the pregnant version. I was so humbled by how many people showed up to my baby shower and how many gifts I received. It was an overwhelming amount and I am so beyond grateful.

Want to know what really really sucks? Let me tell you. Long distance relationships. Nick and I have been unoffcially dating since March (that's when we met and how long we've been "talking") and it's just the worst. We get to see each other about once a month for a couple days, however the last time was one week, and then phone calls, skype and texting till the next time. I should probably write a book titled "How to Survive Long Distance Relationships" except I'm barely surviving. I thought we were doing pretty good and now that we have a plan for him to move here in January, it's the homestretch so I'm getting impatient and just want him here already. It probably doesn't help that I'm pregnant and and am extra emotional and just want my person. Is that really a thing though? I have yet to believe if pregnancy hormones are actually a thing. So far the only thing I believe in is the hormornes that have produced mass amounts of zits on my face. I guess I cry more easily but do I really though? Or is it all in my head?

My New Unplanned Life

I assume this blog will take many different turns. As for now we are discussing life as you want it to be vs how it turns out. And by "we are discussing" I mean, "I will discuss with myself." The movie 500 Days of Summer comes to mind. One of the main characters, Tom, goes to see his love interest, Summer at a party (which turns out to be her engagement celebration party) and it shows his expectations vs reality side by side. If you haven't seen that movie, do it. Now. You might not like it because it's not what you expect or want to happen BUT that is why it is one of my favorite movies. Come to think of it,  I decided it might be one of the many inspirations for this blog.

Now I'm going to give you my expectations vs reality which I call my planned vs unplanned....

My Planned:
Go to college, find a major, pick a major, stay with that major, live on my own, be financially independent, graduate college, get married, have a decent paying job, buy a house with husband, have kids, live the American Dream

My Unplanned:
Go to college, pick a major, switch that major, switch colleges and my major, switch major again....finally decide on a college and a major...

You know what keeps coming to my head as I'm typing all this out...WOW, this is a lot of stuff to type out to get to my point that I GOT PREGNANT WITH MY EX BOYFRIENDS BABY WHO WAS NEVER REALLY MY BOYFRIEND AND IT WASN'T PLANNED AND NOW MY LIFE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED. Of all the unplanned things in the world, I think losing a life and creating a life have to be the top 2 most life altering things a human can go through. Also, you or someone you know getting diagnosed with a serious disease. Life can be intense. It doesn't mess around man. However, how you react to these things really makes a difference.

Fast forward 29 weeks and 2 days, it has been a whirlwind of emotions to say the least. I am here to report I have accepted this new life of mine and am as happy as ever. It took me a couple months to get here but I am here. It doesn't matter how long it takes, as long as you get there. Kinda like when someone tells you a joke and it goes right over your head but a couple minutes later or maybe even days later, you get it. As long as you get the joke.